.Sunday, September 28, 2008
Sorry for th lack of update these fews days, damn troubled over many things...Firstly, english exam was alright, i find tat its much more easier than the past few papers...Monday , social studies, really give up on this subject alright? no mood to study for it!..This post will mainly talk bout my feelings and grief..Everytime when it rains, i will definitiely sms her, asking her to takecare and be careful, and don't catch a cold, there was once i sent her, she replied me, you too , i was really glad and happy, and we shared jokes and i laughed at the phone..Everytime when she is troubled, i tried my best to console her, i remembered once, i consoled her 3 long paragrahs in the msn, and i saw her personal msg typed 'disappointed and sad' which is the same meaning, i told her so tat she can changed it and occupy her mind.. In the end, wad she told me was 'can you jus leave me alone, i type wad i happy can liaos' I was really hurt! But what to do?Once, when she was sick, i was so worry about her, no mood to do anything , no mood to talk in school.. I even wanted to buy porridge or cooked porridge for her! She rejected my offer, nvm its okay.. But thr was once, i was sick, my fren told her, wad she said was' aiya he sick is problem la, wad you want me to do', i was damn hurt once again, why can't she juz ask me to takecare, is it really hard to say?!I knew she like to eat lollipop, i bought for her,I knew her girlguides need ppl to buy cookies from her, i helped her buy..I remembered once, when she was lost at a place, i was worry again for her, i even wanted to ask my dad to fetch her, she rejected its okay..I remembered once, she lost her ez-link card, i helped her to call the SMRT to sort out all the stuffs, in the end she said no need..I confessed to her once and again, all she did was reject and reject..She like or maybe tat was past, one of my good fren, i was rather shock you know? But when she was sick, troubled, i asked the guy she liked to console her, i ask the guy she like to accept her..But in the end, she said she hate me! She said she might hate me forever! She said i'm ugly! All these nasty stuffs tat she said really hurt me a lot, but till now, i still love her deeply, i admit i'm irritating, but i'm really hurt tat she will say those kind of stuffs to hurt me..Every morning, i have to meet my frens at the boonkeng mrt, where i will bump into her, from now onwards i won't go to the booonkeng mrt, i will meet my frens straight at the KFC bus stop, i don't want her to see me and hate me, as in i don't mind she hate me, is jus tat i don't want this to affect her studies.. Tats all i have to say.. I really need advices and consolation can anyone sms me and tell me? Thanks and GoodBye..---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
TAG REPLIES
Elain: Thanks! All the best to you too!
Evan: AH LI KA TOH! You too!
Seri: Haha! I shared the same sentiments as you, i tot you don't recongised me alr.. You reborned ur hair right? So straight.. :D
Eunice: Its okay, you need not everyday tag me, coz i won't update frequently till exams are over.. :D
Sunday, September 28, 2008