Everything seems to be changing,
Finally I realise that love can be that scary & so sudden .
On 29th of DEC , we were still talking happily over the phone,
laughing & joking ,
on 30th , things started to change, you went for choir,
I forgetten and i smsed you, wells thats my fault,
You replied my smses late, i understand ,
you said you were watching movie and i smsed you again ,
its still my fault .
But till in the night ,
I finally knw , everything its not tat simple
I ask you if you were going to watch movie with your friend(S)(mind the 'S')
You said you were , i tot you was going to watch movie with ur choir friends.
Till late at night , you told me you went out with a guy!
& only a guy , alright , its okay, i don't mind it at all ,
you took a picture with him ,
you used it as ur msn DP,
the other time i took the picture with you , you din even put as ur msn dp
& you said you don't feel like taking pictures together with me, coz you don't feel like it.
Am i tat scary ?
& he gave you a pig stuffed toy ,
you typed in ur msn PM that , thanks ____ for the stuffed toy
The other time , i gave you the stuffed toy,
you din even typed in ur msn PM.
I was thinking , at the beginning , are you toying my feelings ?
I asked you , you said you loved me, well , okay, i believe in you .
But now , its so sudden, & i asked you , do you still love me as before ?
You said you don't knw , i was kind of hurt by your answer .
& i received a msg frm you that , you wanted to have a break up with me
I was totally hurt ,
I prepared the surprise for you & everything alr .
The thing i was supposed to give it to you , i was so hurt that i threw it out of the window(You can choose not to believe in me at all)
But i can swear to god that i really threw it out of the window.
I was so god damn hurt ,
I was lying on my bed , thinking of the happy moments we had when we met out .
We held hands, you hugged me, are all these things just pretending ?
Hais .
I can't get to slp well at all ,
I woke up in the midnight and kept on thinking & i'm very hurt.
I woke up at 6+ in the morning ,
to text you a sms , asking you to give me and yourself a chance ,
I 'm too hurt & i got a serve blow .
IN a day , many things can happened.
The next day , i woke up ,
I still feel damn hurt, i was waiting for ur sms to be replied,
but i don't think you will do so.
Hais.
&& you said you will be going out with ur ex and ur friends today ,
wad about me?
I really wished to go out with you ,
yet one and again you went out with your friends?
I really want to continue this relationship .
I'm totally hurt and depressed now , well , wad to do than ?
Hais.
will be waiting for ur sms & lastly , i still love you .
Wednesday, December 31, 2008